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Monday, August 21, 2006

Today I Savored Something


I would like to take this moment to thank God for the delicious strawberries that Issac and I ate after our dinner tonight. They were the perfect strawberries, the ones I have been searching for all my life--you know the kind, ripe and soft while still being firm, deep deep red, juicy, fragrant, just beautiful, and God knows I haven't enjoyed a strawberry like that in a loooooooooong time.

In fact, too much of my life has been passing by without any stawberry-like moments to make me stop and say "my-oh-my isn't it a glory to be alive." But tonight, beginning with my strawberry-juice drenched tongue, my entire being breathed a deep sigh of relief and cried out "hallelujah!"

Today, I savored something. And I would just like to say "Thank God." Because life becomes so difficult for me when I forget to savor things, or I'm too busy, or too tired, or too overworked-stressed-out-depressed- self-involved- lazy to find the moment to savor something.

I was feeling guilty about not savoring the life around me. I've been thinking, at different times throughout my day, "Geeze, I really should be savoring this moment." But you can't force savoring. Just as you can't force inspiration, and you can't force creativity. The world around me has seemed dull and colorless. I haven't been too excited about it. Just bummed in general, even while cognizant of the abundant blessings in my life.

Until tonight. Those were the best strawberries in the universe. And they awakened something in me, even if for just one short moment. In fact, they were so good that Issac and I were spontaneously moaning and groaning about their goodness as we tasted each and every bite.

(I would also like to thank God for Sarah McLachlan and homemade pizza, the two other ingredients that made tonight better than most nights I can recently remember.)

Amen.